For Starters

New year is best known for new resolutions or old resolutions that didn't materialize thus beginning it anew. I have to say that I believe in resolutions. The thing is I have three problems concerning it. One is that I normally fill up one page of my diary with it, but having no conviction to really do all of it. Second is I usually give up doing all of it or some, and, finally, and this is where the big problem lies, I tend to forget my resolutions.

This new year, I summed all of my resolutions into one - that is: to put to death all the negative attitudes everyday. This, of course, stems from my desire to grow spiritually. What I really love about my resolution is that it is easier to remember. The consequences, I love as well. But the process is of different matter entirely. It would involve so much of me (oh no!). It has so many implications and I don't have the inclination to name even one. Forgive me, but I am still in the process of stuffing all the possible implications into my already toxic system.

I'm not so sure I could consistently do all these, but one thing is for sure: my resolution would teach me to surrender myself wholly to the Maker. And this is what I am aiming for.This is it. I myself couldn't remember what I ate during the day I thought of this all-too difficult resolution. So I say to you, are you also willing to murder (is this too bloody?) your evil side? If yes, tell me. I would very much like to have a partner in this crime.